Adik di Pojokan

Biasala aku suka menulis. nak tulis fiksyen deep deep sgt takda idea. tp aku rasa byk yg aku perhatikan sepanjang aku bernafas tak kurang menariknya.

Sebagai pelajar praktikal di department Ilmu Kesihatan Anak, kena oncall 4 petang – 6 pagi di unit kecemasan. tp enjoy. mcm2 boleh belajar. kalau baik dgn residen (post grad doc), dorg baik dgn kita. kalau tak mmg kena maki hamun la. tp kadang mrk x peduli kau pun.

ada satu ibu ni, dgn anak dia mungkin 5 tahun. ibu tu mcm cuak terok. aku x pasti anak dia sakit apa. ibu tu approach satu dokter residen ni. residen tu tanya kartu daftar, tp ibu tu x mampu daftar katanya. dokter residen tu pun suruh si ibu bawa anak dia ke pojokan. mungkin di situ lebih privasi?

Aku assist la dokter residen tu. dah periksa apa semua, dokter tu tulis preskripsi. ibu tu tak mampu beli ubat tu 😦

dokter residen tu panggil aku jauh dr org lain, dia hulur aku duit, minta tolong aku belikan ubat utk adik tu.

lain mcm rasa dia bila kemulian berlaku depan mata kau.

aku pun keluar dr hospital lari pergi ke farmasi terdekat, beli semua ubat tu.

kembali ke unit kecemasan di hospital tu, aku serah semua ubat tu kat dokter tu, dan dia serah kan ke si ibu td. 

si ibu tak putus2 ucap terima kasih…

pesakit tak daftar tapi dokter tu periksa dgn ikhlas. x berduit utk ubat, dokter tu mengeluarkan biaya sendiri.

bila tgk benda mcm ni, mmg berkaca mata aku. haha

altruisme mutlak.

hendaknya ingin aku contohi dokter tadi… 🙂

be strong is a very strong word

I know what i want to do, but i do not know how to do.

i want to play game, but after 10 minutes i just turn of the game

i want to read something. anything. after 3 sentences i close the book.

i want to listen to music, not even half of the song, i turn off the music player.

i want to eat, but after one and a half spoon, i put away the food. into the fridge. may be i just eat it tomorrow. 

i want to smile, but seems theres no reason to.

i want to laugh, But laughing seems so expensive i couldnt afford it.

people told me to be strong. but i failed at it today. lets try tomorrow.

for now, i just want to rest. i want to sleep. theres some sleeping pills in the cabinet. yet sometimes, most of the time, it did not works. anyway just give it a try for now.